When our repressed memories and events are acknowledged, felt, grieved, and freed—we finally become recovered.

When our repressed memories and events are acknowledged, felt, grieved, and freed—we finally become recovered. Our child within becomes cleared so that truth can flow through us. With unusual clarity, we see truth. The clouds part—and we recognise our intuitive pure voice We are at one with all things. Truth is no longer distorted through the filter of the disturbances of our past or the biases of our family and culture. Truth is revealed, clear as a bell.

The Intuitive Voice perhaps you have never experienced that state of mind in which there is total abandonment of everything, a complete letting go

The Intuitive Voice perhaps you have never experienced that state of mind in which there is total abandonment of everything, a complete letting go. And you cannot abandon everything without deep passion, can you? You cannot abandon everything intellectually or emotionally. There is total abandonment, surely, only when there is intense passion. Don't be alarmed by that word because a man who is not passionate, who is not intense, can never understand or feel the quality of beauty. The mind that holds something in reserve, the mind that has a vested interest, the mind that clings to position, power, prestige, the mind that is respectable, which is a horror; such a mind can never abandon itself. do we depend? Psychologically, inwardly, we depend on a belief, on a system, on a philosophy; we ask another for a mode of conduct; we seek teachers who will give us a way of life which will lead us to some hope, some happiness. So we are always, are we not, searching for some kind of dependence, security. Is it possible for the mind ever to free itself from this sense of dependence? Which does not mean that the mind must achieve independence; that is only the reaction to dependence. We are not talking of independence, of freedom from a particular state. If we can inquire without the reaction of seeking freedom from a particular state of dependence, then we can go much more deeply into it. We accept the necessity foe dependence; we say it is inevitable. We have never questioned the whole issue at all, why each one of us seeks some kind of dependence. Is it not that we really, deep down, demand security, permanency? Being in a state of confusion, we want someone to get us out of that confusion. So, we are always concerned with how to escape or avoid the state in which we are. In the process of avoiding that state, we are bound to create some kind of dependence, which becomes our authority. If we depend on another for our security, for our inward well-being, there arise out of that dependence innumerable problems, and then we try to solve those problems; the problems of attachment. But we never question, we never go into the problem of dependence itself. Perhaps if we can really intelligently, with full awareness, go into this problem, then we may find that dependence is not the issue at all; that it is only a way of escaping from a deeper fact.

Dissociation Anonymous hope that you will listen, but not with the memory of what you already know

Dissociation Anonymous hope that you will listen, but not with the memory of what you already know; and this is very difficult to do. You listen to something, and your mind immediately reacts with its knowledge, its conclusions, its opinions, its past memories. It listens, inquiring for a future understanding. Just observe yourself, how you are listening, and you will see that this is what is taking place. Either you are listening with a conclusion, with knowledge, with certain memories, experiences, or you want an answer, and you are impatient. You want to know what it is all about, what life is all about, the extraordinary complexity of life. You are not actually listening at all. You can only listen when the mind is quiet, when the mind doesn't react immediately, when there is an interval between your reaction and what is being said. Then in that interval there is a quietness, there is a silence in which alone there is a comprehension, which is not intellectual understanding. If there is a gap between what is said and your own reaction to what is said, in that interval, whether you prolong it indefinitely, for a long period or for a few seconds in that interval, if you observe, there comes clarity. It is the interval that is the child within. The immediate reaction is the adult self, and the old self functions in its own traditional, accepted, reactionary, animalistic sense. When there is an abeyance of that, when the reaction is suspended, when there is an interval, then you will find that the child within acts, and it is only the child within that can understand, not the old adult self.,

Dissociation Anonymous think it is important to understand the operation, the functioning, the activity of the adult shadow self.

Dissociation Anonymous think it is important to understand the operation, the functioning, the activity of the adult shadow self. When the child within operates, the adult shadow self cannot possibly understand the child within. It is only when the adult shadow self which is our conditioned adult self, our animalistic self, the brain that has been cultivated through centuries of time, which is everlastingly seeking its own security, its own comfort -it is only when that adult shadow self is quiet that you will see that there is a different kind of movement altogether, and it is this movement that is going to bring clarity. It is this movement that is clarity itself. To understand, you must understand the adult shadow self be aware of it, know all its movements, its activities, its demands, its pursuits, and that is why meditation is very important. I do not mean the absurd, systematised cultivation of a certain habit of thought, and the rest of it; that's all too adult shadow self. By meditation I mean to understand the operations of the child within, to watch it, to know how it reacts, what its responses are, its tendencies, its demands, its aggressive pursuits to know the whole of that, the unconscious as well as the conscious part of it. When you know it, when there is an awareness of it, without controlling it, without directing it, without saying, 'This is good; this is bad; I'll keep this; I won't keep that,' when you see the total movement of the old mind, when you see it totally, then it becomes quiet.

Kindfulness brings concentration.

Kindfulness brings concentration. Concentration brings insight. Insight liberates you from your ignorance, your anger, your craving. When you are free from your afflictions, happiness becomes possible. How can you be happy when you are overloaded with anger, ignorance, and craving? That is why the insight that can liberate you from these afflictions is the key to happiness. There are many conditions of happiness that are present, but people don’t recognise them because they are not mindful.

When body and mind are together, you are fully present. You are fully alive and you can touch the wonders of life that are available in the here and the now. So you practice not only with your mind but with your body. Body and mind should be experienced as one thing, not two. On that ground, you see that everything you are looking for is already there. Whether it is enlightenment, nirvana, liberation, Buddha, dharma, sangha, or happiness, it is right there. In fact, that is the only place, the only moment, where you can find these things.

Meditation is Kindfulness when the senses are turned inward.

Mindfulness is meditation when the senses are out in the world. Meditation is Kindfulness when the senses are turned inward.

So many things are happening within us at every moment. We are constantly perceiving the contents of a moment and judging those contents relative to our sense of separateness.

An example:

I am sitting here. I smell cookies. Cookies are good. I am happy. I will go eat cookies.

or

I am waiting for the bus. It is cold and rainy. I am unhappy. I’d rather be where the bus is going to take me. The person next to me looks pathetic. This sucks.

Both of these situations contain elements of perception, division, judgement, and emotional reaction. We are using outward sensory situations and recognition to take stock of a moment and extract and experience.

This is what I mean when I say we look outward for the things we can find inwardly.

A moment is a moment, regardless of what it contains. These things we perceive will shift endlessly. The only constant in every moment is your own Presence. That doesn’t seem like much until you understand what your Presence really is.

Any beautiful and enjoyable moment is a moment in which you have let go of analysis and judgement because you have deemed that moment worthy. And in that let go you experience a peace and silence, the moment appears vivid and amazing.

Perhaps that moment is quite nice. But that vividness comes from your quality of Presence.

Kindfulness begins when you start to observe these inner workings in yourself. Perception happens in an instant and if your attention is preoccupied with thoughts of elsewhere, you will not even know that you are making these judgements as they occurring. Therefore in order to be mindful you must be exactly where you are.

Kindfulness is unrushed. Time passes so quickly that there is no need to speed it along. Sometimes attending to your slow and calm breathing will help to slow your internal rhythm.

Meditation helps to increase your Kindfulness in the world because you will find it easier to be Present and entirely inwardly silent.
 The quieter you are, the more you can hear. And this is the essence of kindfulness. When you are still and silent, the moment presents you with many beautiful things. But more than that, your peace and contentment is entirely self-contained.

To be Kindful is to be at peace. It is an inner thing that can be completely independent of external circumstances. The trick is being present for it.

You can practice Kindfulness by sitting around with your eyes open, relaxing, and taking in your senses. When your mind’s attention wanders, just bring it back to right where you are. Eventually this will be very natural to you. It is only our accumulated restlessness that keeps us from abiding with the here and now.

You can enjoy suffering.

When We say suffer joyfully it looks paradoxical and your mind starts thinking how to compromise both, because to you they are contradictory. They are not, they only appear contradictory. You can enjoy suffering.
What is the secret - how to enjoy suffering? The first thing is: if you don′t escape, if you allow the suffering to be there, if you are ready to face it, if you are not trying somehow to forget it, then you are different. Suffering is there but just around you; it is not in the center, it is on the periphery. It is impossible for suffering to be in the center; it is not in the nature of things. It is always on the periphery and you are the center. So when you allow it to happen, when you don′t escape, you don′t run, you are not in a panic, suddenly you become aware that suffering is there on the periphery, as if happening to someone else, not to you, and you are looking at it. A subtle joy spreads all over your being because you have realised one of the basic truths of life: that you are bliss and not suffering.
So when I say enjoy it I don′t mean become a masochist; I don′t mean create suffering for yourself and enjoy it. I don′t mean: go on, fall down from a cliff, have fractures and then enjoy it - no. There are people of that type and many of them have become ascetics, tapasvis, and they are creating suffering for themselves. They are masochists, they are ill. They are very dangerous people. They wanted to make others suffer but they are not so courageous. They wanted to kill others, be violent with others, cripple others, but they are not so courageous, so their whole violence has turned within. Now they are crippling themselves, torturing themselves, and enjoying it.
I am not saying be a masochist; I am simply saying suffering is there, you need not seek for it. Enough suffering is there already, you need not go in search. Suffering is already there; life by its very nature creates suffering. Illness is there, death is there, the body is there - by their very nature suffering is created. See it, look at it with a very dispassionate eye. Look at it - what it is, what is happening. Don′t escape. Immediately the mind says, "Escape from here, don′t look at it." But if you escape then you cannot be blissful.
Next time you fall ill and the doctor suggests to remain in bed, take it as a blessing. Close your eyes and rest on the bed and just look at the illness. Watch it, what it is. Don′t try to analyze it, don′t go into theories, just watch it, what it is. The whole body tired, feverish - watch it. Suddenly, you will feel that you are surrounded by fever but there is a very cool point within you; the fever cannot touch it, cannot influence it. The whole body may be burning but that cool point cannot be touched.

I have heard about one Zen nun...

She died, but before she died she asked her disciples, "What do you suggest? How should I die?"
It is an old tradition in Zen that masters ask; they can die consciously, so they can ask. And they are so playful even about death, so humorous about it, joking, laughing, they enjoy devising methods how to die.
So disciples may suggest, "Master, this will be good, if you die standing on your head."
Or someone suggests, "Walking, because we have never seen anyone die walking."
So this Zen nun asked, "What do you suggest?"
They said, "It will be good if we prepare a fire, and you sit in it and die meditating."
She said, "This is beautiful, and never heard of before."
So they prepared a funeral pyre, the nun made herself comfortable in it, sat in a Buddha posture, and then they lit the fire.
One man from the crowd asked, "How does it feel there? It is so hot that I cannot even come nearer to ask you - that′s why I am shouting. How does it feel there?"
The nun laughed and said, "Only a fool can ask such a question - How does it feel there? There it always feels cool, perfectly cool."
She is talking of her inner being, her center. There it is always cool and only a foolish person can ask. It is obvious. When a person is ready to sit in a pyre meditating, and then the pyre is burnt and she is sitting silently, obviously it shows that this person must have achieved the innermost cool point which cannot be disturbed by any fire. Otherwise, it is not possible.

Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder Feels Like Being Lost and Disconnected

Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder Feels Like Being Lost and Disconnected

Depersonalisation and derealisation are symptoms that are experienced by many with DID and other dissociative disorders. One person described DID as, “being disconnected to the body and my surroundings.”

Several people described having DID as feeling lost in time, never really being sure of what day it is. Sometimes, you lose hours; other times, you lose weeks of your life. These feelings lead to confusion; it becomes difficult to know what happened and what didn’t happen. “Is it real or is this just in my head?”
Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder Feels Like Living in Constant Fear and Pain

To some, life with DID feels like living in constant fear. Fear of the outside world, fear of oneself, fear of one’s emotions, fear of the past, present, and future. For those that also experience posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), flashbacks can intensify the fear and lead to increased physical and emotional pain. Headaches and migraines can overtake you at any time. Physical pain manifests itself in different parts of the body, as different parts hold pain in different places. Sometimes, there is no medical reason for the pain, but you or your parts feel the pain regardless, and it’s real pain.
Dissociative Identity Disorder and Questioning Your Memories

One of the major symptoms of DID is memory loss, and, aside from alters, memory experiences have the greatest impact on those affected by DID. One person referred to memories as, “currency traded among friends.”

This is because different memories are held by different alters, and are shared (or not shared) with other parts of the system. Some people with DID cannot remember where they are, even when they are in a place they have been before, or they cannot remember a person’s name who they have seen before. This is because those places and people were experienced by a different part, a part that holds different memories. People with DID are not always sure what they will remember, and there is sometimes an underlying worry that one will forget who their family members are or forget how to do one’s job. It’s upsetting when you can’t remember things that you know happened. Sometimes, DID means having to ask for validation, because you are constantly trying to figure out if the memories are real.
Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder Can Feel Normal; It’s Not Always Bad

Considering the struggles that people with DID experience on a regular basis, DID does not always feel so negative; there is good along with the bad. A common theme is that DID feels like never being alone. Even when there is no one else in the room, it feels like you have people there with you: your alters. You learn to adapt to the world with them. As one person put it, “being multiple is as normal to me as being a singleton is to a singleton.”

Intulexic Conversation is not always Zen.

Intulexic Conversation is not always Zen. There are two parts—speaking and listening—to any dialogue, both of which are entangled in the concepts of human language. There is no escape into sensory data. We simply must engage with the ideas.

From our perspective, speaking seems to be little more than thinking out loud. Our thoughts simply move from within to without. The outer voice, fortunately, seems to have a filter that the child within does not. But the functioning of this filtration system is deeply confusing to me. And when it doesn’t work, I’m even more confused.Why did I just tell a lie or an exaggeration.

However mystifying these processes may be, a meta-awareness of our speech is crucial for connecting with others. Without noticing certain habit patterns—gossip, lying, self-talk, useless chatter—we can’t see how poorly they reflect on us. When someone is jabbering about total strangers, it takes real effort to feign interest. But how often are we, in fact, the tiresome bore?

“There is this mismatch between what we think makes us look good, and what we effortlessly recognise looks bad on other people,”  “It’s like a piece of clothing you could wear which you thought looked great on yourself, but the moment you put it on another person, you could recognise that this is the least flattering thing a person could possibly wear.”

INTULEXIA consciousness developed as a way to internalise talking to ourself without the adult you.

INTULEXIA and our consciousness develope as a way to internalise talking to ourself without the adult you. Speaking words triggers parts of the child withins brain involved in moving the diaphragm, tongue, lips, vocal chords, etc. Hearing words triggers parts of the brain connected to the ears. Speaking aloud can be a bad survival strategy, especially when you’re thinking about the chief’s wife, so we developed consciousness as an internal monologue. It works, but it doesn’t exercise as many areas of the brain as speaking and hearing our own words

Intuitive Voice Explorations and Quest Journeys, we believe that there is no better way to do this, than to explore both our outer and within worlds

Intuitive Voice Explorations and Quest Journeys, we believe that there is no better way to do this, than to explore both our outer and within worlds.

We connect with our intuitive voice which lead us to ancient sacred energies and power spots at sacred sites, magical locations and awe-inspiring places around Europe.
Step off the beaten track and experience the culture and essence of a place rather than follow the usual tourist routes.
Embrace the unexpected whilst enjoying the comfort of small groups of like minded people and an experienced meditational Stager.
Learn about fascinating cultures and develop more understanding and compassion for others.
Immerse yourself in the extraordinary and take time to reflect.
Broaden your horizons and transform you view.
Give something back to the people and places visited.
Enjoy daily guided and personal meditation.

2017 Intuitive Voice Explorations and Quest Journeys, we believe that there is no better way to do this, than to explore both our outer and inner worlds.

2017 Intuitive Voice Explorations and Quest Journeys, we believe that there is no better way to do this, than to explore both our outer and within worlds. Our Intuitive Roadshow tours explore ancient sacred sites, mystical and magical locations, fascinating places, holistic wellness centres and retreats around Europe. Most importantly, we recognise that time away is hard earned vacation time and our tours are imbued with a sense of excitement, adventure, fun and growth.We will be traveling back to the lands of The Great Warlord Oswui (641 – 670). taking the Ancient Angle kingdom of Deira, he forged a new kingdom – The Lost Kingdom of the Borders.

Travel through breathtaking countryside, see stunning coastline and visit memorable Sacred Sites during our incredible 9-day journey to The Lost Kingdom.

Experience ancient dolmens and Cairns, a legendary Island Abbey, cathedrals, village churches, traditional historic towns, wells, waterfalls and castles

The Lost Kingdom is majestic and otherworldly – lush green valleys filled with morning mist, craggy moorland peaks reaching through the ancient mists, sacred sites that span five thousand years and a formidable reputation founded on legends of Early Christianity, wizards, dragons and witches. As the last retreat of the inhabitants of ancient British Tribes, the lost kingdoms residents are still connected to the ‘olde ways’. Even today this depth of history and tradition is present in the very fabric of the land.

Our journey takes us on a circular route through this small but diverse border country, while also leading us through five millennia of history, culture and varied ancient sacred sites – all set in breath-taking scenery!. one of the great kingdoms of Britain in the Dark Ages, enduring longer than the Roman Empire. Yet it has been all but forgotten. A Journey back in time to the High Kings of Britain.

Insight meditation accepts that the we need a moderate challenge to learn.

Insight meditation accepts that the we need a moderate challenge to learn. It uses the our associative powers to elicit insights that help us better understand ourselves and reinterpret a conflict situation in non-obvious ways using the ten stage model of re-connection.

Facilitativion ten stages meditation is driven by needs and interests of the child within.

Facilitation ten stages meditation is driven by needs and interests of the child within. We are driven by needs and are motivated by both social and self-interest. Needs lie at the heart of evolution’s reciprocal altruism and of social relationships and the child within has been starved of this for of interaction. The fact that many of our most important needs are unconscious makes this meditational emphasis on interests over positions a winner for the child within;